Monday, August 20, 2012

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Introducing Cali's little brother... Our Rainbow!

Camdyn's expected due date is at the end of July!!

The term rainbow baby is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with it's aftermath.. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds, storm coulds may hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Anencephaly facts

Done by Anencephaly Study at Duke University Medical Center
Approximately 2% of babies with anencephaly will have a chromosome anomaly (a difference in the number or structure of the chromosomes). Testing for chromosome anomalies is possible via amniocentesis or collection of a fetal blood or tissue sample at delivery.

Environmental factors such as obesity, diabetes, certain medications, pesticides, maternal fever and folic acid deficiency have been implicated in contributing to anencephaly. Additional unknown environmental factors also likely play a role.

Anencephaly is caused by failure of the cranial end of the neural tube (fetal structure that develops into brain and spine) to close by day 28 of gestation.

After having one pregnancy with anencephaly, the chance to have a second pregnancy with an open neural tube defect is approximately 3%. Meaning 1 in 33 women will experience a second affected pregnancy.

Humans have approximately 20,000 genes. Genes are the instructions or blueprint for our body. We get half our genes from our mom and half from our dad. Changes in genes likely contribute to the development of anencephaly.

Anencephaly is more common in girls. Approximately 2 in 3 babies with anencephaly is a girl.

Every woman of childbearing age should take 400 micrograms of folic acid daily to reduce the risk of fetal open neural tube defects. Women with a previous pregnancy with anencephaly should take 4,000 micrograms (4 milligrams) of folic acid daily prior to subsequent pregnancies.

Anencephaly is caused by a combination of multiple genetic (inherited) and environmental factors. Unfortunately, most of these factors are not known.

Learning more about the genetic causes of anencephaly may lead to the availability of genetic testing for at-risk family members and potential new preventative measures.

Anencephaly can be seen on ultrasound by the 12th week of pregnancy.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Thursday, November 10, 2011

My Normal..

Normal is telling the story of your child's death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone's eyes at how awful it sounds. And yet realizing it has become a part of my "normal".
Normal is having some people afraid to mention my baby.
Normal is making sure that others remember her.
Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock, the grieving gets worse sometimes, not better.
Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child. NOTHING. Even if your child is in the remotest part of the earth away from you - it doesn't compare. Losing a parent, spouse, family member or friend is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.
Normal is sitting at the computer crying, sharing how you feel with chat buddies who have also lost a child.
Normal is feeling a common bond with friends on the computer in England, Australia, Canada, the Netherlands and all over the USA, but yet never having met any of them face to face.
Normal is a new friendship with another grieving mother, talking and crying together over our children and our new lives.
Normal is asking God why he took your child's life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God.
Normal is knowing I will never get over this loss, in a day or a million years.
And last of all, Normal is hiding all the things that have become "normal" for you to feel, so that everyone around you will think that you are "Normal"