"August 19th is a day to break down the walls of society that keep pregnancy, infant and child loss a hush hush subject. People view the death of a baby as just a sad thing that happened.These babies that die are not sad things that happen. They are people, much loved and wanted children. They are brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, grandsons and granddaughters." ~Carly Marie Dudley

We spent some much needed time with our girl today doing some updates on her gravesite <3

 We added the little fencing and some mulch, & it looks so much better now!

Hoping to get her a headstone soon.



‎”If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.”

"too beautiful for earth."

Looking back..

How it all started :)

( Telling Chris we were EXPECTING!!)

Feb. 8th 2011

Happy Anniversary!!

One year ago today I married my best friend. Our first year as a married couple wasn't exactly ideal but it made us closer in so many ways. I fall in love with you more & more everyday! I am so proud to call my self your wife! Here is to 70 plus more years babe! xoxoxxx

I will carry you all my life..

There were photographs I wanted to take

Things I wanted to show you

Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes

Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not

Truth is I'm barely hanging on

But there's a greater story

Written long before me

Because He loves you like this

I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All my life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you

Such a short time

Such a long road

All this madness

But I know

That the silence

Has brought me to His voice

And He says ...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning

Walked her through the parted seas

Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes

Who could love her like this?

We have faith that we will get our rainbow!

  "In some circles, babies born to families after the loss of a child are referred to as "Rainbow Babies." The idea is that the baby is like a rainbow after a storm. "Rainbow Babies" is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope."

We know our angel Cali is watching over us & will bless us with a healthy baby someday. We have faith that we will get our rainbow!